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October 2017


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I am feeling a little sad today about not being on the ship. I think it is mostly because where I am working right now is the watch floor for the entire west coast fleet of the Canadian Navy, so I am reminded of my ship at sea and what she is up to. At any rate, a friend suggested that I use writing as a means to deal with some of the issues that I am going through right now. Writing is indeed a means to deal with these sort of things, and it certainly has always been that way for me to some degree. Today, I decided to sit down and just write about a part of what I loved about my job when I was at sea. Writing about it helped and this is just a start.

The Morning Watch )

Something Wrong

Tuesday, 9 May 2017 01:23 pm
penlessej: (Centre of Canada)
Lately, I have the feeling that I have done something terribly wrong and although that I am not sure what it is or how it came to pass, I still have the persistant feeling. Now everything I read, has this lense of "is this about me/did I offend this person." It is shitty to say the least. Well, good thing we are sea so I have work to take my mind away from wandering (because really I know that this really is the problem here). Do you ever get feelings like that?

In other news (somewhat related because it sucks too), I am pretty sure that I have developed a hernia on my left side. I would go to the base hospital but they almost always hand out unfit for sea chits for any sort of medical complication, and I can't have that right now (and neither can the ship). So I cannot sit for too long or it starts to hurt (laying down feels much better, especially with my legs elevated). I will have to get this taken care of next week once I am done sailing. I just hope it does not become more complicated because of my intentional avoidance of medical attention.


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